Why would you have a blog without comments? It drives me nuts. I feel like these people are the same ones who surround themselves with those who will never contradict them. Not that I ever post anything quite so controversial as to stimulate a flurry of comments, but perhaps someday I will. Until then, I welcome any thoughts from my (few but altogether lovely) readers. I don't thrive on confrontation or anything, but I'm not afraid of it. I love a friendly debate - I feel like I always leave having learned something about myself and about the other participators. I don't ever mean to offend anyone, but that's why I bring things up like religion or philosophy or art; it's a great topic to incite passionate feelings. I feel like these areas give us a great base to relate to one another as human beings. I don't need a meaning to my life, but I am intrigued by the infinite possibilities of one. Does that make sense? What do you think? Feel free to comment.
In a related topic, I have noticed a trend of being completely disenchanted with Penn by senior year. I'm not saying this is one particular person, or even most of the people I know, but there's definitely at least a handful of people who used to be very enthusiastic about life, both life here and life in general, who have recently become very tedious. Naturally, I'm really against it. The thing is, we may have outgrown our initial reasons for attending, but would you ever really give them all up? Do you honestly think there's a place you could spend four years in and still be happy? Or are you maybe just an easily discontented person? In truth, I still really love it here. And I'm in WHARTON. Seriously, if there's one place you could easily grow tired of (via the pretentiousness, seriousness, egoism, etc.) it's Wharton. But nope, I still love it. Penn and Wharton. Penn is seriously GREAT. GREAT professors, GREAT campus, GREAT traditions (we throw toast for heaven's sake!). And Wharton, you can't help but be amused by all of its quirks. For example, I don't plan on seeing as many pastel-shirted men until I'm retired and in the fabulous nursing homes of Miami. If you're going to let a couple seemingly pretentious people get you down, you're going to have a very hard life. The truth is, we have it SOOOOOO good. I know this probably isn't something most people think of daily, but please be thankful you have a home, food, family, friends - not to mention an incredible WORLD of opportunities! It's just so depressing when people in an ideal situation can't even see it. I mean, maybe it's because I went abroad and got a bit of a break, but I don't think so. Anyhow, I've said my piece. Don't be brought down by others' expectations of you. I've always tried to play a little scene in my head whenever I feel like I'm not living up to what others think I should be doing: the scene is me, in a black dress, with a large rimmed black hat and large sunglasses, flinging myself against a wall, and running the back of my hand across my forehead and softly saying "but darling, a wild one such as I cannot be constrained by social norms." [hehe - I'm not melodramatic AT ALL, clearly] Typically I emerge from this daydream and go up to my room for a private dance party. Because my truth is, that I only have to do what I want. Real estate analyst, stay at home mom, investment banker, Peace Corps, CEO, author, intellectual hobo - it doesn't matter to anyone but me. College is college. In college, the only person you should care about is yourself. No one is depending on you. Be selfish, but in the way that leads you to be happy. Just do what you want. When did that get so hard for everyone?
I'm gonna go listen to Cash and ponder some more. I'm not trying to be self righteous or offensive or insulting or anything really. I'm just so happy and I hate to see others so discontented with life. Life is fan-bloody-tastic.